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Monday, April 13, 2009

I fear Death!

Each one of us has certain mental problems that we could be aware or unaware of but never took it seriously.

Like some people have OCD but they never take it seriously or some people have unexplainable phobias. Certain people refuse to travel away from their warm and comfy home in fear of new changes, new people and even to an extent thinking that people want to murder them!

My visit to the clinic today made me realise that I do have a mental problem of my own- and it is thinking that I might have diseases that have been lurking quietly in me and waiting to surface one day and kill me with all the excessive surgeries.

I have always been afraid of needles, surgeries, medications, hospitals and such things that remind me that I am IMMORTAL! *GASP*

Like today, while waiting to be called by the nurse, I went through brochures after medical brochures and sucessfully convinced myself that I am unknowingly suffering from

1)Pneumonia
On the brochures it said that Prenumonia can be contracted if you have been exposed to cold conditions and suffering from chills, fever, wheezing, coughing and such symptoms.

The other night, I slept with wet hair in a freezing air cond room. Now I'm having fever that is giving the chills and severe coughing. Could I be having pneumonia? = (

2)Endometriosis
On the brochure it said that women who have been experiencing sever period cramps on the lower back and abdomen, discharging blood which is in black or dark red colour could be experiencing Endometriosis. I have been having those since 15. I think I have them.

3)Denggi


Each time I pay a visit to a hospital or a clinic, I always managed to convince myself that I have 5 out of 10 diseases that they put on the wall for reading. The other day, I even thought I had HIV! Sometimes, I even thought I'm pregnant and it caused me sleepless nights just thining about it.

I have a chronic mental disease!

by Zephyr at 4:53 AM |