Thursday, September 25, 2008

Johnny.

June once told me that she doesn't like keeping pets in her house because she believes all animals should be kept free and wild.

We should never domesticate any animals despite the fact that they have already been tamed such as cats and dogs.

I disagreed because the biggest love i could give is to animals. I love animals unconditionally-especially Johnny.

She used to be free and wild. Roaming around the hood looking for food, shelter, water, and companion. She was good alone.

Then I came into her life. Visited her every evening at the park. I patted her, played with her, fed her and as time passes by, she trusted me. She manifested this trust by following me home and never went back to her residing place at the park. Slowly we domesticated her. First through feeding her outside of our house, and then we let her play in our garden and then at night we let her sleep in our garden. Now she has given birth to four puppies in our own home and have made them as our family.

The most horrible thing that one could do is betray someone's solemn trust given to you. Although Johnny is just a dog, but I perceive her as a creature whom have trusted and loved us. But we betrayed her trust.

It was not my intention to do it. It was never my intention to send you away to SPCA but I had to.

Now I feel like I have done the biggest mistake by bringing you home in the first place. I should have let nature dealt with your fate because I believe she knows better than everyone else. My opinion of what's good and bad for you is vacuous compared to what nature holds for you.

I'm sorry that I interfered and now I'm on a crossroad.

Should I interfere into your life again or should I leave you alone now?

If only you could speak Johnny and June, you were hundred percent right.

Saturday, September 13, 2008

sombre

It feels awful when everyone around you has got a company except for you at your times of need.

The feeling of attachement can be overwhelming when you have trusted upon the people your heart but each of one them shuts their doors on you intendedly or unintendedly.

It is true when they say that, you should have only one love in your life-which is yourself.

Embrace thyself and be thyself best companion.

But...There is a catch.

When you become self-sufficient, people around you will stop relying on you as well. And that is when the vicious cycle starts. From self sufficiency, you will begin to lose all the people you used to rely on one by one as they start looking for other things to fulfill themselves. Soon you'll realise that you have lost a shoulder to cry on, a pair of ears that you could borrow for your sorrows, and a cheerful voice that could lift the sombre clouds from your brows.

I am in that place now.

Friends are not objects that can be used at your disposal. So lighten up Zeph!

Thursday, September 11, 2008

Let's put on a fake smile and enjoy a cup of tea with each other!

"All the world's as stage, and all the men and women merely players".

Out of all the ingenious words uttered and written by Shakespeare, this particular line has captured the world and remained as the most popular quote due to its veracity.

Many of us would not like to admit that we are real life actors and actresses who put on different masks each day to each different people. We pretend to be somebody who "we" are not for abundance of reasons. Do you remember the time that you sneaked out of the house and pretended to be such an innocent angel the next time you saw your parents? Or the time that you pretended to be friendly to your next cubicle colleague despite the fact how much you abhor his personality? Or probably the time you pretended to fast or be vegetarian so that you could get along with your current peers?

Everybody pretends! So why the negative air about it?

The word pretence seems to resonate a feeling of digust from many people and its often being tied to the adjective "faker". Everybody is in the chase for "real-ness" or in fact to anything that is close to reality , and that is why many despise people who posses this characteristic.

But many have forgotten that its impossible to remain one dimensional in this multi dimensional world. One would have to deceive and be deceived.

If everyone hates pretences, then we shall not forget that the pretenders too may not fully enjoy his pretences as well. Many pretend just because they fall victim to social pressures- to gain acceptance and warmth. Many yearns for the loving embrace of society and that phenomena can be explained as simple human nature or in fact a nature of every animals in the kingdom. Hence the famous proverbial; No man is an island.

All the characteristics of people are akin to all the flavours that colour this world. Some are spicy and some are sweet, some can even be spicy and sweet. One must come ready with a myriad of tastebuds to fully soak in the wonders of the flavours. The same concept applies in real life where a person must come with multiple personalities to peacefully co-exist with its fellow inhabitants.

Could one truly define one's true personality? As my fellow good friend SarahC reinstated that, each one of us are like the tabula rasa. We started into this journey of life as a blank slate. "And upon life, layers of our own experiences ,build up of others' influences; we become who we are today.Individuals who consist of a mix of existing elements which definite combination makes us uniquely; ourselves."

Being the creature that forever learns from our own personal experiences and absorbs teachings from others, we continously evolve into a different creature each day. No man can be the same man that he was yesterday. Each minute we breathe, learn, spectate and feel, we have added new thoughts that would forever change us little by little.

So, could we fully pretend when we have no fixed personality?